Whenever I walk around BYU campus, quite frankly, my gaydar goes off. A lot. I know that might not make sense, or seem very likely. I mean, why would a gay person want to go to BYU? Well, here I am and probably lots others who are mostly closeted.
I don’t want to give in to stereotypes or anything, but whenever I’m walking around, there are quite a few people who are just so obviously gay, just based on the way they dress and act. You know the look, just…gay. Super tight pants, deep v neck, perfectly coifed hair, the walk etc. Whenever I see those people, I just think, “Have they come out to themselves? What’s their relationship with the Church? Am I just over generalizing and they’re actually straight?” However, I mostly admire these people. I mean, they’re obviously comfortable with themselves and probably don’t care that other Mormons might judge them for deviating from the norm.
While there are those people who you can obviously tell are gay, the others are the ones I really wonder about. The ones who are dressed cleanly, and obviously put some effort into their appearance. The ones who still have that ‘look’ about them. I always wonder in my head if these people are gay. I mean, a lot of straight guys put no effort into their appearance, but the culture in Mormonism is to have a guy be a bit cleaner looking than usual, so…it’s hard to tell. But regardless, these are still the people I want to make friends with. These are the people who, like me, don’t like to advertise who they are (Not that there’s anything wrong with the overtly flamboyant guys). Sometimes I just want to ask them if they’re gay, but…that would be awkward. Especially if they’re the person who is struggling with their sexuality and still coming to terms with it. But then again, wouldn’t it be better if they came out to themselves (maybe by my influence of talking to them) then end up marrying some woman, trying to take away the gay?